Sunday, October 4, 2015

Sunday, September 13, 2015

9.12.15 doubts and...nevermind

The care was never there
And I hate that I have given you the trust that I should've not given you in the first place.
Can we press the rewind button?
My oh my, I swear that this would be the last.

The post 9/11 entry

Me thinks that she need a friend today. *Cookie monster voice *
Good thing she has many, but she never had the guts to talk about it. More alcohol please.

Yes, I know we all have busy lives to be busy with. 
But where are you now that I need you?

Wednesday, July 8, 2015

21 Reasons Why You Should not be Proud of Being Busy

Before you say you don’t have time, here’s a better question:
Can you afford to stay the same and still grow?

1. When you’re busy, you aren’t present.

Life is made up of hundreds of thousands of moments. Some that move us, others that change us, and some that provoke us to action. Being busy takes us away from those moments.
Millennial expert Jullien Gordon has a remedy for this: know the difference between being a workaholic vs. a high performer. The former wants to look more important, but the latter seeks out important work. Knowing the difference can help you do more in each moment of your day.

2. When you’re busy, you opt out of opportunities.

Opportunities are everywhere. They come up in coffee shops, via social media outlets like Twitter, and through mutual connections. When you’re busy, you often miss opportunities because you only see them as distractions, not spaces for you to grow and advance.

8. When you’re busy, your vision gets blurry.

Ideally, you’re busy because you are working towards something. A new job, a promotion, financial freedom, or simply trying to change something. It’s hard to remember your “why” for doing what you do. But it’s arguably the most important motivator you’ll ever have.
That’s exactly what Lo, the founder of Can’t Stay Put, did. Can’t Stay Put is a lifestyle movement built to inspire people to break out of their comfort zones, see the world, and live the lives they only dreamed about. She did that by finding her vision and purpose on a trip to Maui, and hasn’t looked back since. She transformed her life by finding out exactly what she was supposed to be doing.

11. When you’re busy, you equate patience with complacency.

Great things take time and effort. With only a finite amount of time, you can control your effort. Sometimes we think our efforts should put us in a different place immediately. It’s never that simple, though. Being busy creates a myth of perpetual progress: the faster we move, the closer we are getting to our goals, right?
Not always. Your effort, multiplied by your consistency, is what sets you up to capitalize on the moments that are made for you to shine. Patience means you’re not watching the scoreboard, as you’re in the game everyday. Don’t count the number of shots you take, because you only need one to win the game.

13. When you’re busy, you don’t have time to think.

Thinking deeply and clearly is a skill that comes with practice. When we’re busy, we have to deal with floods of information, and often we are responsible for opening the dam. Professor and author Cal Newport describes the benefits of deep work (which requires deep thought) in three ways:
1. Continuous improvement of the value of your work output.
2. An increase in the total quantity of valuable output you produce.
3. Deeper satisfaction (aka., “passion”) for your work.
Those outcomes are exactly what we try to produce as a result of our productivity

15. When you’re busy, you aren’t working to your potential.

Being busy requires a consistent shifting of focus, which takes you away from using concentrated effort to complete the tasks you need too. The Harvard Business Review calls this cumulative attention debt, and it keeps people from generating new ideas and solutions to complex problems. Quicken Loans CEO Dan Gilbert has an insightful quote on how to tell if you’re really living up to where you should be:
“Innovation is rewarded, but execution is worshipped.
You can only execute when you have the space to develop ideas. Being busy takes you out of that space.

16. When you’re busy, your friends can quickly become acquaintances.

Friendship is a critical component in how we engage in the worldWe need other perspectives and opinions to help shape us, push us, and develop us. But being busy, we often put our friends on the fringes. We’re so busy on the grind that we don’t have time for their counsel or insights. That’s a risky endeavor, as they are sometimes the only people who are able to tell us about ourselves and have it stick. Make time for the people who will tell you the truth, especially when you don’t want to hear it.

18. When you’re busy, you’re really joining a cult no one ever wants to be in.

Everyone is always doing something, and our culture rewards efficiency, even when it’s not practical nor sustainable. The ‘cult of busy’ is an association that we opt into because of work, the speed of life, and an incessant desire to try and do everything. It taps our relationships, drains us physically, and leaves us confused and looking for answers. Work will always be there, but the connections and moments that we cherish and are intrinsic to our humanity, won’t be.

19. When you’re busy, you forget to dream.

Dreams fuel us. They let us break through our current state, and are the building blocks of desire. Without the dream, your passion and drive won’t be sustained long enough for you to actualize them. Dreaming is what allows seemingly ordinary people to do extraordinary things.

21. When you’re busy, you forget your “why”.

Your “why” allows you to achieve and persist under adverse circumstances, when a lot of other people might tap out. It’s what allows you to persevere through crazy work hours in the first place. But you’re not simply a worker. To consistently remember it though, you need to create time to refresh and think about the reason you do what you do.
Having things to do isn’t bad. But busyness without purposefulness is a recipe for burnout and personal dissatisfaction. Make 2015 the year for you to live (or find) your purpose, commitment  to being present, and fight to own your schedule. It isn’t easy, but nothing worth having is. Let’s make 2015 the year we measure the importance of the work we do, instead of how much of our calendars we can fill up. Let’s hold each other accountable and make this year the best we’ve ever had.

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Wednesday, July 1, 2015

Life is Unfair

The only thing that I don't like about the written form of communication is that the receiver can cut you off whenever they want to; AND they will only respond whenever they need you.

Nice, very nice.
And yes, you.

Saturday, June 13, 2015

The Ones Who Chase Their Dreams Doesn't Always Quit Their Job

You need to put yourself into an uncomfortable position to make yourself fight for your dreams!

Make sure you wrestle with this decision a little. Listen to the ‘fear’ (fear is actually a good thing – it keeps us alive but also is often a precursor to doing something significant!) and involve others who care for you (and who you care for) in the decision and then make the move.
Sometimes you just need to jump and put yourself in a place where you’ve got no other option but to work your butt off to make your dream come true.

Tuesday, June 2, 2015

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

And regardless of whether it’s a goal or other, if you don’t want it enough, then you don’t deserve it.

Friday, May 8, 2015

Late Night Thoughts

“My desires in a relationship have changed over time. I no longer want someone who promises to always love me and never leave me, I need someone who understands that life happens and sometimes things don’t work out. I don’t want someone who sugar coats things and never gets angry with me, I need someone to tell me how it really is and put me in my place. I need to be able to go five hours without talking to you and not feel lost or incomplete. I am complete without you. But with you, I want to be so much better. I want to be stronger with you. I want us to grow together and help each other grow individually. I don’t need you, but I really fucking want you. And this may not work out, but the fact that you understand all of this and this how our relationship works, makes me think we’ve got a pretty good shot.” —anonymous ‪#‎LateNightThoughts‬

Wednesday, May 6, 2015

Sh*t happens

What do I want? To teach her to be wary without being fearful. To know that she can trust her gut. That if something feels wrong, that’s all the reason you need to get out of there. Don’t worry about being nice, or hurting someone’s feelings: they’ll get over it. Or, they won’t, and so what? You don’t have to wait, I want to tell her, until you have no choice. You have more power than you know. So say no. Say it loudly. Say it twice. And then get out of there, and come home.

Friday, May 1, 2015

"The hardest part about growing is letting go of what you were used to, and moving on with something you’re not."


Wednesday, April 29, 2015

If You Can’t Stop Thinking About It, You Shouldn’t Stop Working For It

Once you find the right things or people to focus on, to devote your life to, life becomes better – instantly.

Not necessarily easier, but definitely better, more rewarding, more meaningful and more hopeful.

The hard part is continuing the pursuit when life makes it difficult to continue doing so.

Never give up on the things and people who mean the most to you in life because if you do, your life will lose meaning.

If you can’t stop thinking about it, don’t stop working for it. Don’t stop pushing ahead, no matter how difficult it may be.

You can take rests along the way, but make sure you get up and continue heading in the right direction as soon as you regain energy.

If you give up on the things and individuals you believe hold meaning, then you are, quite literally, giving up on yourself. Nothing could ever be sadder.

Wednesday, April 22, 2015

"Better to be a poorly equipped doer than an over-equipped poser. " -G.Ramsay

Wednesday, April 15, 2015


Everyone wants to succeed but very few people are willing to step into the cold waters. Do you see the problem here? In the history of the world, no marathon race has ever been won (or even finished) by someone who never left the starting line.

You're still stuck at the starting line all along because you don't want to start small and grow bit by bit from there.


Saturday, April 11, 2015

Ignoring the vast number of items whose importance falls below a certain threshold.
Not the absence of a line at our door, but a line with no truly important people remaining in it.

This process may well be occurring right now. A moment ago when you read the phrase, “no truly important people,” above, you probably flinched a little and thought it was somewhat callous. I flinch when I read it, too, and I wrote it! But this understandable response is exactly why we devote time and attention to people who don’t truly merit the investment. There’s a fine line between effective triage and being an asshole, and many of us are so worried about crossing that line that we don’t even get close.

Saturday, March 28, 2015

Problem Solving

ABC is good at three skills. The problem is that she's good in a sense that there is no place for any more improvement. 

She wants to improve skill X, but she found herself struggling only to find out that her level of skill X plummeted to point zero. And from point zero, she never had a chance to go up again.

Makes sense?

Thursday, March 26, 2015

The career advice I wish I had at 25

Always rushing only leaves you empty, and tired. It is fine to give yourself permission to take some time in the slow lane with the hat people.

Shane Rodgers

Tuesday, March 24, 2015

The Fisher

One more thing
Why is it your fault?
So maybe you're trying too hard
But it's all because of this desire
You just wanna to be liked
You just wanna to be funny
Looks like the joke's on you
So call yourself "Captain Backfire"

*words in bold faces were replaced from John Mayer's song: My Stupid Mouth :)

Fisher boy, one day you'll eat those words.

Thursday, March 19, 2015


Are they really expecting for a home cook to be 100% knowledgable about food??
From history of a dish to the different kinds of spices? Or the Latin/Spanish origin of the term?
To further ignite my frustration, are home cooks expected to know the Eight Culinary Cuisines of China?
Then what is the difference between a chef/culinary student and a home cook? PLEASE TELL ME.

I know I have a lot to learn about these things BUT going back, it's a competition among the home cooks! I believe some culinary student can pass that test and some might not even name the 10 kinds of curry and the different types of adobo, but come on! It's just for audition! They haven't tried the REAL knowledge in the kitchen yet. 

Isn't it that passion for cooking and knowing what you're doing (and you WILL be doing with limited ingredients) in the kitchen would suffice the qualification? Just for the audition?? 

And you know what? The challenge is when someone is not 100% familiar with an ingredient and that person pulled it off with his/her cooking. And that is also the time when your 0% knowledge is filled. Remember the story of an empty cup? 

But hey, thanks for tapping me to expand my knowledge in kitchen vocabulary.

Please bear with my ranting. But I WANT TO REDEEM MYSELF. SO BAD.

So, here's another validation that my last name is indeed Hopeless.

Tuesday, March 10, 2015

Quiet Love

A repost from a news article:

Illustration by Elizalde Pusung
I didn’t grow up in an openly sweet household. I don’t recall my parents saying “I love you” to each other on a daily basis, nor do I remember seeing them hug and kiss in front of other people. There was no abundance of flowers during anniversaries, no attention-grabbing cards and teddy bears, no elaborate surprises engineered with friends.

This lack of romance might seem baffling and unacceptable to a generation whose idea of love involves flash mobs and viral videos and a deluge of couple selfies on Facebook. Nowadays it seems that if you don’t express your love loudly enough, it doesn’t count.

But if there’s one thing I learned from my parents, it’s the beauty of quiet love. One that focuses on depth, not volume, and is unmindful of the crowd. Love that is expressed not through grand gestures or eloquent pronouncements, but through quiet service.

I saw it whenever Papa woke up in the middle of the night to massage Mama’s lower back to try to ease the pain caused by colon cancer.

It was love that gave my bedridden mother the strength to leave their room and perilously make her way down the stairs every afternoon, just to make sure our helper was preparing a decent meal for our family.

It was love that drove Papa to spend what little spare time he had to design and build a vehicle that had enough space to accommodate Mama’s botaka chair.

Theirs was a love that didn’t trumpet itself and didn’t crave an audience.

The only time I saw my parents profess their feelings for each other was when they had their long overdue church wedding, more than a decade after their civil wedding.  It was a simple affair attended by a handful of relatives and friends. Papa was wearing slacks and a long-sleeved polo, while Mama was clad in a white blazer and skirt that were far too large for her.

She had gotten so frail that she had to be wheeled toward the altar. But when it was time for my parents to exchange vows, Mama grabbed hold of the prie-dieu and slowly, painfully pushed herself up. She was pledging her love for Papa in the presence of their Creator, the only witness that really mattered. She wasn't going to do it sitting down.

Mama passed away less than three months later.

Today, almost two decades since, I no longer remember the words my parents said and whether or not they cried at their wedding. I’m not even sure if Papa touched Mama’s face as they kissed. But I will never forget the way my mother stood up for my father that day.

At a time when people are screaming their I love yous and promising forever in big, bold letters, it’s comforting to know that the power of my parents’ quiet love remains. It reminds me to value the love that’s tucked in the corners, not clamoring to be heard but is nevertheless felt.

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Tuesday, March 3, 2015


Wow. Edi wow.
Too bad I can't use Google AdSense. =(



May I present to you my very first Star(s) photo composition. (Apologies for the grainy image caused by high ISO and timidly post processing through an app to emphasize the stars)

For future reference, the ideal setting for my camera should be (assuming you are located at an urban place, where street lights are highly visible):
ISO: 4000*
Shutter speed: 15 seconds (clouds are starting to move at this point, so make sure the sky is clear)
Aperture: highest possible (in my case, its 22)
Manual mode
Time: 2am 

*if the area is not populated by any means of light such as street lights, 100 would be the ideal setting.

Query, query, query

K. bye

Friday, February 27, 2015

R U ready?

It’s a terrible thing, I think, in life to wait until you’re ready. I have this feeling now that actually no one is ever ready to do anything. There is almost no such thing as ready. There is only now. And you may as well do it now. Generally speaking, now is as good a time as any.
-Hugh Laurie

Now I have to stick this to my mind.

Friday, February 20, 2015


Sometimes, quitting can be the best option. However, quitting is riskier. It can put you in a tough situation, and into scenarios you hadn't expected. If you're to quit, plan carefully, and examine whether the timing is right. Don't make quitting a habit. You'll need a bit of persistence if you're going to succeed at anything.

Wednesday, February 18, 2015

14 Things It’s Time You Forgave Yourself For

10. The chances you didn't take

The places you never travelled to. The experiences you didn't have. The person you did not chase after when they decided to walk away. We have to unclasp our palms and let go of every alternate reality where we’re happier, stronger, brighter because of all the things we did differently. Those universes do not exist. But ours does. And it’s okay here, if we open our eyes up and let it be.

2. Courage

You can choose to break the inertia of fear and take action, or you can let the fear win another day. Courage doesn't need to be impulsive. After all, it's likely the fear exists for a reason.

You don't necessarily have to jump into a cold shower to develop your courage. You build courage when you break out of your comfort zone. 

Why Not?

Thursday, February 12, 2015

1. Persistence

"Nothing in the world can take the place of persistence. Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent. The slogan, 'press on' has solved, and always will solve, the problems of the human race." -Calvin Coolidge
If you want to practice being more persistent, don't look too far in the future. On days you feel like giving up, focus on the immediate moment, and how you can make even just the slightest bit of progress (or fix a setback) by the end of the day.

Wednesday, February 11, 2015

14 Things It’s Time You Forgave Yourself For

2. The ways in which you fought through pain

The dark paths you shouldn’t have gone down. The crazy things you did in the name of coping that brought about more damage than good. The things you did to keep yourself alive when you didn’t know any better way. The way your survival instinct showed itself when you were too young or helpless to control it doesn’t make you a bad person. It makes you a stronger, fuller person for still being around. For having found your way back to life.

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Friday, February 6, 2015

Decision is only wishful thinking until you take that first irreversible step.

Friday, January 30, 2015

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Mga Tanong na Pwedeng Hindi Tinanong ng mga Batang 90s

Inuuhog ba talaga tayo kapag natutulog?

Bakit naka helmet ang Power Rangers? Eh nasa malaking robot naman sila...wait, nag momotor din ba sila? Di ba parang bigla na lang silang lumilitaw sa eksena?

Kristiyano din ba si Ultraman? O tagasugpi ng mga Bampira? + + +

Kailangan talaga kinakanta natin to bago magsimula ang... Tayo na sa Sineskwelaaaaa!
with matching goosbumps (plus mathtinik, hiraya manawari & epol apol)

At kailangan natin gawing fake braces to...

Siyempre cool ka kapag may ganito ka:

lalu na to:
rakenroll beybeh!

pero ako masaya na ko dito:

At habang nasa school tayo, sabay sabay nating kinakaladkad to sa stairs (paakyat man o pababa) tapos kapag may rampa paspas naman takbo natin

All-time favorite drink oh:

Nung hindi pa Nido ang gatas namin...


Napatid at nauntog sa unang baitang ng hagdan, nakaapak ng pako, nakagat ng aso, nalunod, tumaob sa bike, NAG GUPIT NG SOBRANG IKLING BANGS at nakalunok ng BEBELGAM (aksidente pa rin ba yung huling dalawa? HAHA)

The Birth of a V...?

One disadvantage of posting on a blog is to remember one of your worst days.
Apparently, none of this would matter if...

Monday, January 26, 2015

The Wanderer's Dream


The most fulfilling human projects appeared inseparable from a degree of torment, the sources of our greatest joys lying awkwardly close to those of our greatest pains…
Why? Because no one is able to produce a great work of art without experience, nor achieve a worldly position immediately, nor be a great lover at the first attempt; and in the interval between initial failure and subsequent success, in the gap between who we wish one day to be and who we are at present, must come pain, anxiety, envy and humiliation. We suffer because we cannot spontaneously master the ingredients of fulfillment.

 Fulfillment was to be reached not by avoiding pain, but by recognizing its role as a natural, inevitable step on the way to reaching anything good.


 “The test of one’s decency is how much of a fight one can put up after one has stopped caring."

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

The Thing About Emotions

That’s the thing about emotions: they ebb and flow. Sometimes we feel so lovey-dovey, other times we want out. Sometimes we feel like we’re with the person we’d like to be with for the rest of our lives, other times we doubt whether this is even the right relationship for us.

Friday, January 2, 2015


Remember that not everybody shares the same sense of curiosity in food, and that if you are a foodie who is out to seek out a culinary adventure, it is best to bring along someone who’d appreciate a good food hunt. Finding out and deciding how far one is willing to travel for that sumptuous, glistening bowl of udon is the key in this situation. Nothing spoils a trip more than an unwilling party.

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Sabi nga nila:

Pero kasi ang...

2014 In a (one blog post)Nutshell

Amid the stunning fireworks and the 'earthquake' beats from my neighbor's stereo...(ano daw?? haha)

Grabe, habang tinitignan ko to, sobrang dami palang nangyari last year 😄 siyempre kasama na rin dun yung walang pictures haha

Sabi nga ng FOB, "Thanks for the memories, even though they're weren't so great" pero siyempre halos lahat ng memories maganda! haha

ikaw, gaano ka-memorable ang 2014 mo compared to other year and to another year? ano daw? haha

January 11 - 12 2014: TREAT Surf Camp at La Union with New Found friends:

February 10, 2014: I was invited to be one of the speakers for a career orientation from my Alma Mater. =)
(I know some of my friends would say, "SERIOUSLY??") I know right? hahaha

February 25, 2014: Tandem Gliding trip at Carmona, Cavite. (Unfortunately, many of us didn't make it due to some wind problems. HUHU I wish I could try this next year. BUKO, pleaaaaaseee?? haha