Oil and Water

I'm selfish, impatient, and insecure. I make mistakes. I am out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you don't deserve me at my best. -Marilyn Monroe (1926 - 1962) 

Oil and water. Two substances that cannot be mixed. And the worst part is that even though they are inevitably separated with each other, those two substances remain enclosed into one vessel. No matter how big it is and how clear they can be distinguished, they're still lying on the same ground.

It's like being in a room, bumping onto each other, looking at each other's eyes but there are no words coming out between us. It seems like we've been treating each other more than a stranger; or is it just the walls that we've built between us? That I can't tell.

You, you, you.

I've been thinking...what if it's been you all along?
What if it's you who made my life worth living?
after all these years that I existed?
I've been making myself too busy looking, waiting
Now I'm thinking if you really ever came into my life or even existed.

You, you, you.
I'm so crazy about 'you'
It's not 'you' but you,
The feeling that I'm feeling with you.
I'm just writing for me to remember you.

Just once, only once
Make me try to forget about you.

Savoring the last hour of my teenage year

I can't imagine how time flies so fast.
Plain words can't even explain.
Gaining and losing some friends ;
Fighting and losing battles.

New experiences and lessons learned,
We're learning who to keep,
Now we're trying to let go.

Some memories kept on haunting;
Some memories we can't recall.
But the best part is when you drop
And you'll flop your wings up above...

Now I'm reminiscing:
We used to cry for an injured knee,
We used to be afraid of the dark,
We used to be careless,
We used to pretend
that we can be anything we wanted.

Now, step back and feel the gravity,
And let me get you back to reality.

Ang Tayutay ng Handaan

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Eto na, nakahain na,
Ano 'pang inaantay mo?
Kulang pa ba ang paalala at pag-aasikaso?
Kulang pa ba ang hirap at pagod na dinaranas ko?
Hindi mo pa ba ramdam na ikaw na lang ang wala?

Ano 'pang inaantay mo?
Kunin na lamang ang kubyertos,
Isusubo na lamang,
Ngunit ika'y wala pa,
Hinanap ka na at lahat,
Hindi mo ba alam na para rin ito sa'yo?

Fifty Shades of Grey (Top 6 Choices for Lead Role)

(left to right) I. Somerhalder; M. Bomer; C. Pine; A. Pettyfer; H. Cavill

C. Egglesfield--added (10:34 pm)

(left to right) F. Jones; A. Bledel; M. Kerr; A. Greene; L. Hale

C. Belle --added 11:32 pm

If I were given the chance to pick the cast for the Lead role of the novel 'Fifty Shades of Gray', I'll choose either Ian Somerhalder or Colin Egglesfield to portray the mysterious, 'mercurial' and sexy Christian Grey. While Felicity Jones or Alexis Bledel (or Camilla Belle) would portray the witty but innocent Anastasia Steele. 

Rumors are spreading that this novel will be turned into a movie, and which my guess would be challenging to the future staff and director because as far as I can remember, the book predominantly consists of erotic scenes between Christian and Ana, which might be criticized mostly by individuals who are conservative by some individuals. I wonder how the director will work on these scenes. Having read E.L. James' "Fifty Shades of Gray", "Fifty Shades Darker" and "Fifty Shades Freed", my mind wandered through the possibilities on the situation of the other characters encountered by the couple at the end, which I consider the downside part. The author barely gave an idea to Christian Grey's family, to Elena and his ex-husband, to Jack Hyde and Elizabeth Morgan, and other recurring characters. It seems like the book purely revolves around the two of them, but honestly, I enjoyed reading it especially the exchange of love notes (or e-mails) between Christian and Ana, which I wish that they won't cut any part of it in the movie because this would be the most thrilling part of the book. Honestly, I have no regrets on reading this book out of my growing curiosity.

I guess many readers are patiently waiting and stowing their twitchy palms to see who will be chosen to play the leading roles. As for now, in my own perspective, these people can possibly portray the roles effectively: