Let's call it a day.

Dear future i-don’t-know-what-to-call-you,

This could be one of the days that I’ll have enough time to recuperate myself.  But then, I realized that maybe I am wasting too much time for myself, and that I have no one to spend my unrestricted time with, even though upcoming plans and undertakings are piling up, begging me to accomplish them right away. Maybe I was too overwhelmed by couples surrounding me – holding hands and sweet talks. Oh, how I wish I could spare those precious times with you! 

Maybe one day we could swim the endless ocean and gaze into the colorful life residing underwater. Perhaps, we can soar and overlook at the pure guise of the wilderness and after that, we could watch the sun descend and wait for its moon. But the most important thing is that I know you, and that I’m with you.

I’m wondering how long will I be staring at this blank slate, feeling foolish and dissatisfied with what I have in hand. And there’s no one here, but me. When will I meet you? Or will I ever meet you?

*photo credits to tumblr.

Microwave cupcakes

Just made some of these today! yum yum :)

All you have to do is mix some flour, cocoa powder, sugar, milk, eggs, oil, vanilla and chocolate chips in a mug. Leave it in the microwave in HIGH setting for 2 1/2 minutes and then, BOOM! You may enjoy your chocolate cake in a mug. :D

photo from: writing our way home

Seashells on the Shore

Do you remember the time when
I wrote your name on the sand using these shells?
Its the time when I let my guard down,
Believing that you could be the one.
But now, the water has ran into the shore...




*photo credits to Mango Red

and it happened...

A face could be deceiving but the heart itself cannot be mislead.

It's really hard when you declare that you love someone or something; because at the time you declare is the time that you'll lose, you'll lose everything that you thought that you're happy and you'll be saying 'I think this is it'  and 'I won't find anything else for exchange'. I think that's the way life goes on. Maybe the next time that I feel something that is worth sacrificing for, it would be better to just ignore and just go with the flow. I'd prefer to live through a muddy-clear expression of feelings than to proclaim what the heart really says than be dumped that easily for knowing that being worth sacrificing for is equal to infinite forgiveness and no valuation of my self worth.

OJT

I'm on my nth day out of my 38 days in my practicum subject. So far, its been good for me when it comes to the relationship with the employees(although I haven't memorized all of their names correctly), they really are kind of me and because of that, they 'rarely' give my any other things to do, and I have limited resources to make myself busy.

Why did I say so?
I don't have my own desk and working computer(actually, I'm writing right now, during my working hours, good thing I can browse on this site, and finally, I'm using someone's computer while she's one of the participants of the on-going seminar somewhere in Mindanao. Thank God I had the chance to use one unit, but only up to this day, too bad), I'm only trying to make myself busy in reading books: to be precise, I already finished 6 books in an average of 3 days each book, that means I'm spending too much time on reading instead of working on something related to what I've studied although I know, as a trainee, that they will only give you clerical works most of the time, but they're giving me almost none.

Anyway, I've discovered a lot of authors lately and I'm going to read their novels the next day I had the chance to grab a copy of an e-book, a PDF copy or an actual book. Maybe I'll try to read Niccolo Machiavelli's "The Prince" or Victor Hugo's "Les Misérables". I'm really interested in reading this since high school because one of our teachers told us that Machiavelli's work has been one of the favorite books of late president Marcos during his regime.

Going through the whole point, it feels like I've been working here for years! I don't know if I'm the only one who feels bored, exasperated and anxious on my everyday routine: waking up 5:30 in the morning, dressing up at 6, preparing my things for work and leave the house at 6:45 then, you'll go home 7 or 8 in the evening and eat your late dinner at 9pm. I can probably relate this routine during my ordinary school days but this time, it feels like I'm emotionally and mentally tired, not because I'm doing too much mental thinking and analyzing tables, graphs and any other economic variables in the firm that I'm working on, but I'm tired because of the idle 'hours' that have been wasted. In short, I'm not really productive at all, in every single day. I don't know yet, but right at this moment, I don't know if I want to stay at this kind of workplace; I admit it has a good reputation and even a good working environment (working in a high rise building and good food served at the canteen), but I don't feel like I belong to this kind of work until the day that I'll retire.


'Lemme share you some things that I've experienced in my almost first half of my on the job training(this includes the pros and cons):